This is exactly what you’re doing again here. There is an established and working process to ask for commit rights, and it does not involve writing a lengthy appeal and incite further discussions about it on both Reddit and Discourse. The only result you get from this is further community division and drama, distracting more people from the technology and contributing to their burnout.
I am not authoritative on this (neither a mod here nor can I give you commit access), but for the sake of everybody’s sanity, I ask you to please disengage, self-reflect, and focus your energy on what you excel at: Technical contributions.